Hard Times

Well here I am.  I have to get  a lot off my chest and here is the best place to do so.  I will be 50 years old in a few days, and I should be happy, but I'm having a very difficult  time.  Our dog died a week ago after 11 years.  The house feels empty without him  He used to bark for his supper, at the Jeopardy theme music and sing Happy Birthday. I look for him everywhere.
The cat disappeared July 7th.  God I loved that cat.  It feels like someone has kicked me in the heart.  Time is not helping with all this heartache.  I think I need professional help.  I don' t get pleasure out of life like I  used to.